It's been a while, hasn't it?

Oh well. As you know, I'm quite a busy girl.
So, the guy I talked about in my last post- he and I broke up, about a week later. Then I started dating Danielle, this absolutely beautiful Brit who I fell pretty hard for. Unfortunately, my commitment-phobic ways got the best of me when she asked to visit this summer, and that turned into the fight that was the end of us. I still think of her a lot.
There's another guy I'm pretty into- we'll call him Elmo. He's absolutely adorable, but he likes intelligence and I act like a total bimbo around him. Fuck my life.

On the plus side, I have a new friend, Nicki. She's pretty awesome. Colorful, loud and has a definite fuck-you-I-rock attitude. I approve. She and this chick I'm crushing on hang out a lot, and I'm hoping she can get me an in with her. Tomorrow I'm going to talk to her about starting a Rainbow Alliance at our school. I think she'd be up for it.
I just got a letter shortlisting me as a candidate for a Stanford summer course, and I'm excited. I still have to finish my application and pray they can ignore my math grade. We can't all be great at everything, right?
I've been working out a lot, and I hope to get toned more for summer. Fingers crossed that I'm bikini-ready by June! I'm going to Warped Tour in July for my birthday. I'm pumped. I'm bringing Lilly and Bri, maybe Nicki instead of Lilly. (Lilly's kind of a straightedge, not the kind of person you want for a day of unbridled fun on public).
I'll be back again soon, I promise.

Incredibly,
tee~~

FLsldkfjgdd.

Today I was asked out by the nice, charming, relatively attractive guy I've been talking to for a month. I said yes. I'm not attracted to him at all. Plus, he's three years older than me and I've only seen him in person once.


So, loves, my question is this: Why do I do stupid things? And better, how can I stop?!
IN OTHER NEWS:

oh my FUCKING GOD

if you are a fucking god, let me tap this. 

please, god, please

i'l never do anything wrong again if you just let me tap this.

PLEASE.

*ahem*

sorrry about that. i'll just go... um.... make a cup of tea now. Yup, a cup of tea, yessir. that's all i'll do. mmhmm. 

"Dreams are as advice given by a very wise – very drunk – old man. A wealth of knowledge behind them, yes, but always, always to be treated with cynicism."




Curiously, 
--tee

Today's Playlist

For your listening pleasure:
1. Le Cafe- Odelaf et Monsieur D
2. I Belong To You/Mon Coeur S'ouvre A Ta Voix- Muse
3. Tire Swing- Kimya Dawson
4. Hysteria- Muse
5. Brand New Day- Neil Patrick Harris/Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog
6. Endlessly- Muse
7. Self Esteem- The Offspring
8. Hysteria- Muse
9. Summerboy- Lady Gaga
10. Starlight- Muse
11. Sure Fire Winners- Adam Lambert
12. Feeling Good- Muse
13. Mercy- Duffy
14. Undisclosed Desires- Muse
15. You Always Make Me Smile (Remix!)- Kyle Andrews
16. Time Is Running Out- Muse

Yes, it is half Muse songs. Why? Because Muse is awesome, Matthew Bellamy is awesome, Dominic Howard is awesome and the other guy is awesome. Plus, they're British. Yum.

forever and always,
--tee

My Summer, In A Tad More Detail

June-
Kicked ass; took finals. Nate and Opal got engaged. I turned (insert age here). Sealy and Lena moved out. Hung out with Bri a few times.

July-
Was bored. Wrote fanfiction. Listened to music. Hung out with Bri a few times.

August-
Nate and Opal moved in- Opal had gotten emancipated and needed a place, Nate had moved out but gotten kicked out of where he used to live. Lilly came up for a week! It was ridiculous amount of fun. We went to the beach, hung out with Sealy, Lena (Lilly didn't like Lena either, to my satisfaction), Nate and Opal, did some other things. In general, it was fun. Then I was bored. I helped Bri move into her new house, hung out with her a few times, then started school again. Yaaay.

September (technically not summer, but whatever)-
Went to school, saw Nick, Chelsea (Chrissy's sister), Chrissy, Bri, and the rest of my peeps. Lusted after Sam and Mr. G. Nate went to LCI (his college) and Opal moved out.

October-
Went to school, panicked over grades, nearly fainted while doing an oral presentation on HIV/AIDS, and lusted after Chris. Y'know, the usual.

Well, I must be off. People to do, things to see, you know the drill. Later, darlings!
--tee

Dear You,

If you're reading this, then you're awesome. Just so you know. 

You may be wondering what's been happening with me in the past six months after my last post, so I will inform you of just that.

I passed last year's classes. Opal and Nate got engaged, Nate went to college a few hundred miles south of us while Opal finishes up her senior year of high school, they're still together, though we're all taking bets on how long it will be before he cheats on her. He's kind of a manwhore. 

Lena and Sealy are still together. They live in an overpriced room in her aunt's house a few towns away while they both work and go to college. Lena is controlling Sealy and ruining his life, which is pissing me the fuck off, but whatever makes him happy. 

Bri and I are still best friends. I came out (to the people closest to me) as bisexual and became obsessed with the show Top Gear and the band Muse. 

My love life: I had a fling with Ross over the summer, which was good until he got clingy. While Nate and Opal were living with me (long story for another day) I slutted about (insert city here) with people I met at a Magic: The Gathering meeting. For the record, nerds are convinced they need to be really good at sexytimes for anyone to want to have sexytimes with them, so they do LOTS of research. It bodes well for their girlfriends, trust me.  I currently have thing for last year's history teacher, a popular boy we'll call Chris, and the head cheerleader, whom we'll call Sam. She's a she.  The only one I'm actually trying to be with is Chris, because Sam's straight and Mr G. would be statutory. DAMMIT.

Leo's girlfriend Jenna is now with Chad, and Leo's gone back to trying to get with freshmen. Honestly, I'd pity him if he wasn't still (yes, STILL, after a year) not talking to me, as per his parents' demands. Seriously, dude? Nut up or shut up.

Lists:

Things that are negative in my life:
1. My parents being sick
2. My weight
3. Hopes of relationships (or just straight-up sex; I'm cool with either) with a cheerleader, a popular boy and my teacher, none of which will come to fruition
4. Halloween- hanging out with my beloved skeevy people. If I get caught I'm seven kinds of dead
5. My math grade (abysmal)
6. the growing sensation that my creative writing course is killing my talent

Things that are positive in my life:
1. Friends, especially Bri and Lilly
2. My ridiculously hard to quash sense of hope
3. My taste in music
4. Social life: it's looking up
5. No oral presentations for at least two weeks
6. My laptop: key to home

Top Six Celebrity Crushes
1. Richard Hammond from Top Gear
2. Matthew Bellamy of Muse
3. Dianna Agron of Glee (yes, I watch it. I love it. It appeals to my inner gay man)
4. Paul Rudd
5. Ellen Page
6. Joseph Gordon-Levitt

Well, that's today's entry. Feel the love. Mood: Silly Music: My Freeze Ray- Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog

TTFN. I'll post later this week, loves. 

<3, tee

My English Project

Part of my English project was modernizing Romeo and Juliet, then taking a character and using their perspective to summarize the story. I picked Benvolio.
WARNING- THIS IS UNDER THE CREATIVE COMMONS COPYRIGHT. Use and I will sue.

Benvolio’s Blog

    So, everyone, there’s been plenty of debate as to what happened at the Capulet cemetery a few days ago.
    One of the people who’s dead was kinda my best friend, and since one of the other people who died because of Romeo being a self centered prick was my other best friend, the Friar was kind enough to give me the details of what went down. Here it is:
    At that party we went to a few days ago, Romeo met Juliet. Some mutual flirting went on, they exchanged screennames and fell madly in love. It wasn’t till the next day that they talked online and realized that they’d get a bunch of people killed if they decided to go get married. They did it anyway.
    Apparently, Romeo had figured if they were married, the two families would be united and it’d be really hard for them to kill each other in good conscience. So, they met up with the friar and got married. The flaw in his plan was that the marriage was secret. Dumbass. Then Tybalt tried to whoop him for being at the party and Romeo was all “Dude, let’s not fight, I love you” and Tybalt thought he was making fun of him for those rumors about him and Balthasar that had been floating around forever, so he tried to kill him, which got Mercutio pissed, he attacked Tybalt and Tybalt attacked back, Romeo got in the way and Tybalt did this sneaky little stab that was big enough to kill Mercutio. One friend down, one to go. Oh yeah, then Romeo killed Tybalt, which got him banished.
    Problem was, Lady Capulet set up a surprise wedding for Juliet and her ex-fiance, Paris. (Lady Capulet had no clue about the ex part, however. Can’t say I blame her. That Juliet chick obviously wasn’t too good about letting people know who she was with.) Since Juliet didn’t want to cheat on her husband (even though she had no problem going from someone’s fiancee one day to someone else’s wife the next), the Friar set her up with this sleep-of-death potion that made everyone think she was dead. Which was really not cool of the Friar, since this was pretty much Juliet’s fault anyways, taking Romeo on the rebound like that. Whatever. Doesn’t make any difference now.
    Juliet got put in the Capulet crypt, Paris thought she was dead, and Friar Lawrence sent Romeo an email about how he had to come pick Juliet up from the crypt that night when the potion wore off. But Friar John was working on the WiFi network at the time, so Romeo never got the email. Balthasar had only heard the official story (that she was really dead), so he went and told Romeo that. Being the overemotional idiot he was, he went and bought some drugs to OD on off of that guy on High Street (yeah, a drug dealer on High Street, I know). He went to the crypt, but Paris was there, being a whiny little bitch as usual, saw Romeo, and had to fight with him because of the whole Capulets-hate-Montagues-Montagues-hate-Capulets thing. Romeo kicked his ass. Then Paris was all, “Lay me down with my love, blah blah blah,” before he died, so Romeo did. Although I seriously doubt he loved her. He must have done something pretty bad to make a clingy girl like her break up with him. Balthasar was eavesdropping, but he knew that Romeo’d kill himself one way or another. He and girls just don’t mix well.
    He went into the crypt, made out with the “dead” girl, and killed himself. Then Friar Lawrence popped in as Juliet woke up, and since he’s a man of the cloth and all, he couldn’t lie. He told her about Romeo and Paris being dead. Then something scared him, and he left. Juliet killed herself.
    I’m glad she’s dead. If she just acted like a normal Capulet, like she was above and beyond Romeo’s attention, then they’d all be alive. But no, she had to be all rebounding-clingy-looking-for-love. And she used Romeo. I know he wasn’t a saint, and that he was wicked blind when it came to girls, but I still think it’s her fault. He got over Rosaline, he could have gotten over her. But he won’t. He doesn’t get a chance to. He’s dead. So is Mercutio. But that’s more his fault, and Romeo’s. Mercutio shouldn’t have gotten involved, and Romeo shouldn’t have gotten between them. Mercutio’s death sucks, but it was an accident. Kind of my fault too, since I got Romeo to go to the party.
    I’m moving away from Verona. I’m going to college in Japan for a few years, then I might come back. I can’t stand staying here anymore. This is, officially, the end of the blog. Bye.
~~Benvolio

Like it? Love it? Tell me what you think. Criticise it, whatever!
~~Tee

Life, Love, Lust

Yes, I haven't posted in ages. I'm a busy, busy girl. There's been some drama going on (with me, when isn't there?!) so I've been preoccupied. And I've been trying my hand at some longer writing than blog posts, yet still trashy. Welcome me to the womderful world of fanfiction! :)
Bri and I got into a huge fight, I will not dish the deets as to why. We're friendly again now, but I'm keeping my distance. When I was away from her, I felt more confident than usual, better, prettier. I liked it. So we'll see how it goes. As it is, I won't be trusting her for quite a while. And no, I'm not overreacting.
Lena is wonderful. I trust her more than ever, and I will sincerely miss her when she graduates. Even though she does get me pissed sometimes.
Sealy is a good brother. Yay.
Nate and Opal are still going strong. He's planning on proposing to her this summer. I'm glad; they're perfect for each other. Plus, they're cute as a couple. :D
Lena's hot brother has friended me on Facebook and talked to me twice, for a good while each time. He initiated both conversations, which is a good sign :) and he told me he likes my eyes. It totally made my day. I felt gorgeous. Now whenever anyone says anything I relate it to something he says. BONUS: He and Lena aren't related by blood. So he's fair game. I mean, he was before, seeing as Sealy and Lena aren't married, but dating your brother's girlfriend's half-brother is just a tad too close to incest. But now I can get off scot-free. Pun intended. Since he's coming to the graduation sleepover tent party. Second pun intended.
I know this is not even halfway long enough to make up for all the posting I haven't been doing. But if you comment it makes me feel loved and want to write more. :)

Gracefully, gorgeously, generously,
Tee!