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Today I was asked out by the nice, charming, relatively attractive guy I've been talking to for a month. I said yes. I'm not attracted to him at all. Plus, he's three years older than me and I've only seen him in person once.


So, loves, my question is this: Why do I do stupid things? And better, how can I stop?!
IN OTHER NEWS:

oh my FUCKING GOD

if you are a fucking god, let me tap this. 

please, god, please

i'l never do anything wrong again if you just let me tap this.

PLEASE.

*ahem*

sorrry about that. i'll just go... um.... make a cup of tea now. Yup, a cup of tea, yessir. that's all i'll do. mmhmm. 

"Dreams are as advice given by a very wise – very drunk – old man. A wealth of knowledge behind them, yes, but always, always to be treated with cynicism."




Curiously, 
--tee

Today's Playlist

For your listening pleasure:
1. Le Cafe- Odelaf et Monsieur D
2. I Belong To You/Mon Coeur S'ouvre A Ta Voix- Muse
3. Tire Swing- Kimya Dawson
4. Hysteria- Muse
5. Brand New Day- Neil Patrick Harris/Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog
6. Endlessly- Muse
7. Self Esteem- The Offspring
8. Hysteria- Muse
9. Summerboy- Lady Gaga
10. Starlight- Muse
11. Sure Fire Winners- Adam Lambert
12. Feeling Good- Muse
13. Mercy- Duffy
14. Undisclosed Desires- Muse
15. You Always Make Me Smile (Remix!)- Kyle Andrews
16. Time Is Running Out- Muse

Yes, it is half Muse songs. Why? Because Muse is awesome, Matthew Bellamy is awesome, Dominic Howard is awesome and the other guy is awesome. Plus, they're British. Yum.

forever and always,
--tee

My Summer, In A Tad More Detail

June-
Kicked ass; took finals. Nate and Opal got engaged. I turned (insert age here). Sealy and Lena moved out. Hung out with Bri a few times.

July-
Was bored. Wrote fanfiction. Listened to music. Hung out with Bri a few times.

August-
Nate and Opal moved in- Opal had gotten emancipated and needed a place, Nate had moved out but gotten kicked out of where he used to live. Lilly came up for a week! It was ridiculous amount of fun. We went to the beach, hung out with Sealy, Lena (Lilly didn't like Lena either, to my satisfaction), Nate and Opal, did some other things. In general, it was fun. Then I was bored. I helped Bri move into her new house, hung out with her a few times, then started school again. Yaaay.

September (technically not summer, but whatever)-
Went to school, saw Nick, Chelsea (Chrissy's sister), Chrissy, Bri, and the rest of my peeps. Lusted after Sam and Mr. G. Nate went to LCI (his college) and Opal moved out.

October-
Went to school, panicked over grades, nearly fainted while doing an oral presentation on HIV/AIDS, and lusted after Chris. Y'know, the usual.

Well, I must be off. People to do, things to see, you know the drill. Later, darlings!
--tee

Dear You,

If you're reading this, then you're awesome. Just so you know. 

You may be wondering what's been happening with me in the past six months after my last post, so I will inform you of just that.

I passed last year's classes. Opal and Nate got engaged, Nate went to college a few hundred miles south of us while Opal finishes up her senior year of high school, they're still together, though we're all taking bets on how long it will be before he cheats on her. He's kind of a manwhore. 

Lena and Sealy are still together. They live in an overpriced room in her aunt's house a few towns away while they both work and go to college. Lena is controlling Sealy and ruining his life, which is pissing me the fuck off, but whatever makes him happy. 

Bri and I are still best friends. I came out (to the people closest to me) as bisexual and became obsessed with the show Top Gear and the band Muse. 

My love life: I had a fling with Ross over the summer, which was good until he got clingy. While Nate and Opal were living with me (long story for another day) I slutted about (insert city here) with people I met at a Magic: The Gathering meeting. For the record, nerds are convinced they need to be really good at sexytimes for anyone to want to have sexytimes with them, so they do LOTS of research. It bodes well for their girlfriends, trust me.  I currently have thing for last year's history teacher, a popular boy we'll call Chris, and the head cheerleader, whom we'll call Sam. She's a she.  The only one I'm actually trying to be with is Chris, because Sam's straight and Mr G. would be statutory. DAMMIT.

Leo's girlfriend Jenna is now with Chad, and Leo's gone back to trying to get with freshmen. Honestly, I'd pity him if he wasn't still (yes, STILL, after a year) not talking to me, as per his parents' demands. Seriously, dude? Nut up or shut up.

Lists:

Things that are negative in my life:
1. My parents being sick
2. My weight
3. Hopes of relationships (or just straight-up sex; I'm cool with either) with a cheerleader, a popular boy and my teacher, none of which will come to fruition
4. Halloween- hanging out with my beloved skeevy people. If I get caught I'm seven kinds of dead
5. My math grade (abysmal)
6. the growing sensation that my creative writing course is killing my talent

Things that are positive in my life:
1. Friends, especially Bri and Lilly
2. My ridiculously hard to quash sense of hope
3. My taste in music
4. Social life: it's looking up
5. No oral presentations for at least two weeks
6. My laptop: key to home

Top Six Celebrity Crushes
1. Richard Hammond from Top Gear
2. Matthew Bellamy of Muse
3. Dianna Agron of Glee (yes, I watch it. I love it. It appeals to my inner gay man)
4. Paul Rudd
5. Ellen Page
6. Joseph Gordon-Levitt

Well, that's today's entry. Feel the love. Mood: Silly Music: My Freeze Ray- Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog

TTFN. I'll post later this week, loves. 

<3, tee